Never Let Go, Never Say Goodbye

Sahabat itu diuji oleh waktu...

Siapa yang selalu ada di samping kita dan mendukung kita dalam setiap pergulatan hidup.

Yang mengerti saat kita susah meski tanpa kita bicara

Yang menarik saat kita menjauh

Yang bertahan saat diterpa kesalahpahaman

Yang memeluk saat kita menangis

Yang ikut bahagia saat kita tersenyum.

Yang ikut bangga saat kita berhasil.

Bukan yang hanya melihat lalu menikam dari belakang.

Bukan yang ada dengan perhatian palsu saat kita kesulitan.

Bukan yang terpaku saat salah satu menjauh

Bukan yang menjauh saat salah paham menerpa

Bukan yang hanya diam saat kita menangis

Bukan yang sinis saat kita bahagia

dan jelas bukan yang iri saat kita berhasil...

Hanya waktu yang bisa menunjukan...

siapa sahabat sejati, siapa bukan...

Dan untuk kalian, sahabat...

Biarpun sekarang kita terpisah jauh, jarak juga waktu

Tapi kita tahu, kita akan selalu ada untuk satu sama lain.

"Sahabat Selamanya"

(Sara Lea Tunas, 11 November 2009)

Yesterday, I did hurt and broken...

Yesterday, I did want to give up and let go

I did thought, if I was about to be left behind again... then let it be.

Since it always be the same pattern of story all over again...

Since I pretty used with that...

I did thought, it would be fine for me still...

I'm a strong girl, more than others could imagine, so those little fact wouldn't bring me down at all

I could take it sincerely... for not expecting any return for everything I did...

Though there's no one for me to count on, I still can count on my own self.

I know I'm strong enough for that.

Though there's no one that reach back my hand to pull me off from despair

Though I count 4, 3, 2... and voila, no one there...

Though...

Hurt, of course, but overall... I'm fine...

Knowing they do well, it's more than enough....

I can take it and let them go.... as long they are happy, as long they are smiling...

If it's only me that cherish them that much, but I'm not that important...

Then let it be :)

But later then. today... reading my own writing a year ago, slapped me directly on my face...

Time will reveal who is the one that we can call as "friend"...

who's the one who standing near us in good times and bad times

who's understand when one in need, without any need to say words or explanation

who's holding us and cry with us in the hard times

who's proud of us and smile with us in the happy times

That part, I know it soooooo well....

But I did forget one thing,

that friendship is not only about standing together, holding, crying, and cheering up in sad times, or smiling in the good times...

There's one more thing that people not really realized...

One more thing that makes lot of friendship breaks and fall apart.

One more important thing that makes a good long friends becomes a stranger...

We forgot...

That friendship is also about the one who's holding on and reminding when the other one starts to run away.

The one that fighting when the other one forget to do so.

Not the one who standing still, letting go, and looking quietly at other one's back that starts walking further, alone

Not the one who do nothing, when the bond starts disappear.

Friendship comes to an end, when one don't care anymore when the other ones run away...

When one chooses not to reach the other ones' hand and asks to stay...

No matter what reason is...

No matter it's for a good thought or a good wish...

The result is same: the distance expands between, soon becomes nothing but emptiness, changes story to history.

Counting on each other, when one in need... That's just how it suppose to be...

It is not about expecting the return from what one already did, when the other one was in need...

It's not like "hey, I've cheered you up, so it's time for you to cheer me up, so we're even!"...

but it's just like... "We're completing each other weakness, because we both cannot survive the otherwise"

Because there's no other way.

So, when a friend just forget to do so, when we starts counting 4, 3, 2, and they are not coming...

when a friend starts walking faster and leaves us behind...

It's our obligation to hold them on...

To let them know, "hey... I'm here, and I need you"

and ask them to stay...

and remind them... about how we used to cherish each other on.

Before one day, when it's too late already, we both will look back and said regretfully:

"Why did she NOT remind me?" and "Why did I NOT remind them?"

"Why did we NOT ask each other to stay?"

Because the world is forgetting, by the world forgot.

Friendship wasn't born as the way it is...

The bond isn't there because it was there since beginning...

Need an effort to keep cherishing each other as a gift, in good times and bad times.

As for me...

I'm really good at understanding sincerely and accepting people as the way they are patiently...

I'm also really good at putting other's people happiness before mine and letting them go to reach it after me...

But now, i guess it's time for me to learn...

not only stand quietly, watching them walk away and say 'let it be'

but how to hold them on close... if I do consider them as a dear person for me

Because that's what friends supposed to do.

Never let go, never say good bye.