An Agreement with God... and the Result

Flash back to September 1st, when i made my first agreement with God Himself...

I was worried...
I was scared to the bone...
I was unsure...

I felt my path was pitch black and it headed nowhere...
I glanced and saw all the people followed their own path and left me behind
I looked around and saw all the fingers pointed at me "loser...loser..."

I stood alone, tried to believe... This was just a part of the law of process
I told myself, why I should be afraid after all of these times HE proved to me that HE has HIS own plan at HIS own time.
And yeah, long story short, I made an agreement with Him.

An agreement...
That I would shut down all negative voice in my head
That I would not care what other people thought
That I would care not about anything any longer, but focusing myself to fight my best
To win above myself, to reveal the best side of me
And let HIM take care the rest of it...
That's how we divided our work.

And here I am now... 4 months after the agreement we made.
I look back and smile....

After those downfall moment...
After those "loser" judgement from others...
Who would even guess that I would join in Garin Nugroho's crew making his new big film "Soegija"?
Who would even expect that the legend now knows me personally and acknowledges my quality?
Who would even think that finally I would make my way here and there, getting chance that not any people will get easily?

After learning a lot in pre-production and production time of Soegija, then getting a chance to join the shooting of Rako's Malaikat tanpa Sayap as an assistant of Script n Visual continuity, following by opportunity to help in Soegija's post production... Now I'm waiting for another shooting day of Hanung's Perahu Kertas.
Unexpectable. Unbelievable.

Here I am now...
Running in a very full-speed towards my dreams, catching up with all the time I've wasted during my galau phase...
I've grown and still growing to be a better and stronger person... Day by day...
Facing and encountering all the challenge directly while believing, i'll be stronger more that i could think about once all of this done

I made my entrance already to the dream I never knew I had
The rest is up to me...

Matur nuwun, Gusti...
Again, YOU proved it to me, YOU would never fail me.

And yeah, we made it :)